Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Focus

Let me tell you about a dream I had last night. I rarely remember my dreams, so when I do remember one I assume that God is trying to tell me something. So, I was in a church that I didn't recognize, but there were people there that I have grown up knowing. When I got to the pew I found myself holding a plate that had a few huge pancakes stacked on it and a little plastic cup of syrup. As I was standing up to sing I set the plate down and the cup of syrup started spilling onto the carpet. I immediately started bending down to clean it up while everyone else started singing. The problem was; it wouldn't stop pouring out. I was trying everything I could to wipe up the syrup, but nothing I did could clean it up. During my attempts to clean up the syrup my alarm went off and woke me up.

In no way do I call myself an interpreter of dreams, but I have a good idea of what God is telling me through this dream. Over the past two months or so, I haven't been doing that well. I've been really stressed and the sins of life have been dragging me down. I've been trying everything I could to wipe the sins out of my life. I have taken God out of the equation. I'm trying to do everything on my own. Instead of singing praises to the Lord with everyone else, I'm still trying to wipe up the syrup. Hebrews 12:1-2 tells us "Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God." (ESV). I've been trying my best to lay aside the weight and sin, but I forgot the only way that it's possible. I must look to Jesus instead of myself. I am prideful if I believe that I can do this on my own. Christ is the only One who can pull me out of my sin. I need to keep my eye on the prize, which is Jesus and NOT relief from my sin.

So, I guess my plea is that those of you who read this is that you please ask me if I'm always taking my sin back to the cross of Christ instead of trying to go it alone. Please also pray for me as I am going through this difficult struggle. Thank you so much my friends. Take care and God Bless!